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Mental Illness in Recovery
Good morning Dear God. Poor Roman returned to the hospital within the last month, Roman’s third time going into the hospital. Please make his doctor put Roman back on his new medicine. When Roman came home from the previous hospitalization, the hospital doctor put him on a new treatment, Trileptal medication, which helped Roman so he won’t hear voices or think that people were trying to hurt him. I’m agitated this morning because Roman has a heart of Gold. And Roman should not suffer because of his original doctor, Tod. The Doctor at Saint Elizabeth told Tod and Greg that Roman was on a new treatment and ready to leave…
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Higher-Power is my Savior
June 29, 2022 Good morning, dear God! I’m happy and sohba today. Gary got me a new book, God Promises, for every day. I’m giving it back to him because I think the book will help him, as it’s helped me. I started reading from the beginning of the book. “God Promises for every day, ” says, “Jesus is your savior.” It continues. “He saved us because of his mercy. It was not because of good deeds we did to be right with him. He saved us through the washing that made us new people. through the Holy Spirit through Christ, our savior..” Titus 3: 5-6 Jesus, you saved me…
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Step-4
Step 4: Made a searching a fearless moral inventory of ourselves. After being in the program a while and getting through the first three steps, I’ll admit I was a little nervous about step 4. People told me it was the “the make it or break it” step and how some folks even relapsed during this time because it brought back a lot of trauma. I mean hell, who wants to revisit the past that we shoved so far deep down into our souls that we tried to forget? But, we have to be FEARLESS. Some things we have to just do afraid. If we ever wait…
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From Rage to Forgiveness
June 28, 2022 Good morning, dear God “. Forgiveness” is the topic. God tells us to forgive others, and God will forgive our sins. It took me my whole life to forgive my father before he passed away. One day my father called me, and I fell to the floor crying. He told me, “I want you down here so I can suck your “f***in p***y.” I was in a state of rage and revenge when I heard those words from his mouth. I raced down to Chelsea Massachuttes from Salem Massachttes. It only took me less than thirty minutes to get to his house. Rage was permeating through my…
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Answered Prayer from God
June 27, 2022 Dear God, good morning. Throughout the years of growing up, I knew a little about you, Jesus. Even then, a foster mother had me in catechism at nine. I disassociated from people and kids while taking catechism. I was “taken” away from my sisters and brother. I was traumatized because I didn’t have my siblings, and they are my world. And I was on my own, scared, lonely, frightened of foster parents. What if they would hurt me as my mother and father did. I had not found prayer yet and had no idea the power of it. Today’s reading from God’s Promises for every day writes:…
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Blind Faith
June 26, 2022 Dear God, good morning. Today’s reading in the book God Promises for every day writes about “Faith.” “So faith comes from hearing the Good News, and people hear it when someone tells them about Christ.” Romans 10:17 Growing up, I had no faith in God. I lived in survival mode, surviving group homes and foster homes. I think childhood trauma was the worst, being abused by your parents physically, mentally, emotionally, and sexually. I don’t know how I survived. When the abuse ended, I was so relieved. As a child, I was confused. I thought everyone grew up with abuse, such as mine. Faith is believing…
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Grace of God
June 24, 2022 Dear God, good morning. I woke up at 3:00 a.m. I’m exhausted this morning. The Bible speaks about “The Grace of God.” I think the Grace of God has touched us all in some part of our lives, or maybe not. However, I believe God’s Grace touched Moses. Moses spoke to God, and According to the book God’s Promises for every day, it writes, “The Lord said to Moses, I will do what you ask, because I know you very well, and I am pleased with you. Then Moses said, “Now, please show me your glory.” The Lord answered, “I will cause all my goodness to pass…
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Misplaced Trust in the Fellowship
June 23, 2022 Dear God, good morning. Yesterday was an emotional day. A woman in the fellowship scammed me. Sandy B. Sandy B lied to me about getting fifty thousand dollars from a fake agency called Better Community Development Program. (BCDP). This program is for underprivileged individuals, low-income families, and people(s). Sandy said her cousin received thousands of dollars from the BCDP Government Agency. The agency was giving away free grants, anywhere up to two-hundred-thousand dollars. Thus, I was thinking about my family’s future. Sandy B created an account using someone’s identity and picture on Facebook And made up a link to this woman’s name Ms. Williams. This Williams lady was…
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Alcoholism
June 21, 2022 Good morning, God. Years ago, I wrote to you in two-thousand and fourteen when I was still in the throws of my alcoholism, and I was now going out drinking as much as possible. It is very dangerous for a woman to be by herself. Usually, I go out with my so-called girlfriends. But I didn’t care. I went out one night, and I had my pool stick and wanted to play pool for drinks at this scummy place where drug dealers hang out, alcoholics, like myself, and the gang members of the Bloods hang out there too, but they never bothered me. My poor husband was…
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Anger-Survival
June 20, 2022 Dear Good, good morning. The reading is about anger-survival It’s taken me up until now to work on my anger. I was explosive when I got angry at a young age. Yes, I was furious when I was little. At the age of ten, the Department of Social Services {DSS} decided to separate me from my siblings. My world fell apart. I was angry and my heart was broken. I was devastated, DSS didn’t let me say goodbye to my sisters and brother. DSS took me from school and placed me into another foster home. I hated my Social Worker, she apparently didn’t care about the fact…
