June 26, 2022
Dear God, good morning. Today’s reading in the book God Promises for every day writes about “Faith.” “So faith comes from hearing the Good News, and people hear it when someone tells them about Christ.” Romans 10:17
Growing up, I had no faith in God. I lived in survival mode, surviving group homes and foster homes. I think childhood trauma was the worst, being abused by your parents physically, mentally, emotionally, and sexually. I don’t know how I survived. When the abuse ended, I was so relieved. As a child, I was confused. I thought everyone grew up with abuse, such as mine.
Faith is believing in God; blind faith is what I have today. Jesus, I have faith in you even though I can’t see you. But you came to me when I was on my knees asking you for help, I was crying my heart out to you, and I felt you holding me in your warm arms. People may not believe in me, and that’s fine with me. I know what I felt that day. Since then, I have more faith in you, Jesus. The Bible was written thousands of years ago. Therefore, I believe the Bible is telling the truth about you, Jesus. The New Testament I love because it talks about your teachings, Jesus. I only had faith in my parents when I was a little girl.
I remember my father taking me to work with him when I was four years old to protect me from my mother’s scorn. I had “Faith” in my father to keep me away from my mother, and he did. My father would take me into bar rooms to exterminate the place. He was well known as “Bill the Bug Man.” He had his own business, and he made a lot of money.
My father saved me so many times from my mother. By taking me to work with him. I believe that was divine intervention from you, Jesus. You have always been there for me my whole life. I was blind to see that. Today, I believe in you more because your fruits are love, joy, peace, patience, understanding, forgiveness, and enteral life is a blessing and unmerited gift. I love you, Jesus. Have a beautiful day!!