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Jesus is Your Deliverer
December 8, 2022 Dear God, Good morning. Today’s reading from God’s Promises for every day says Jesus is your deliverer.” I truly believe you delivered me from the hell of alcoholism and from trying to kill myself with pills and alcohol, and from being killed by my former abuser Josh. Two-thousand and eleven was the worst year I encountered. My boyfriend, Josh, physically attacked me at four in the morning. Josh’s head-butted my head, and I felt pain so severe I blacked out. I woke up to Josh strangling me with his left arm. I was choking and starving for air. I turned towards his left bicep, which was choking…
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Abuse and Alcoholism
December 6, 2022 Dear God, Good morning. Today’s reading from God’s Promises for every day says Jesus is your deliverer.” I truly believe you delivered me from the hell of alcoholism and from trying to kill myself with pills and alcohol, and from being killed by my former abuser Josh. Two-thousand and eleven was the worst year I encountered. My boyfriend, Josh, physically attacked me at four in the morning. Josh’s head-butted my head, and I felt pain so severe I blacked out. I woke up to Josh strangling me with his left arm. I was choking and starving for air. I turned towards his left bicep, which was choking…
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Anger in Recovery
November 2, 2022Dear God, good morning. I am always happy to write to you, Jesus. Every morning I open my little brown book, God’s Promises for every day. I open a page in the book and then write about the topic every morning. Today’s reading is about “What to do when you feel angry?” Wow, my anger gets me into trouble, and sometimes I snap. For example, Desiree is a neighbor that lives downstairs from us. Desire assaulted an employee at CVS and was barred for life.I have to pray for my enemy, Desiree is a fighter, and I’m not. But I was angry at her for telling me to.…
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Adversity in Sobriety
August 14, 2022 Dear God, good morning. Please, Jesus, help Gary, Roman, and myself. Poor Gary is so upset, and so am I. Roman refuses to tell the truth about what happened yesterday. Roman got increasingly aggressive with Gary. Gary was nice to let Roman use his phone so that Roman could call his father. Roman’s dad, Richard, hasn’t gotten Roman a phone yet. More adversity for sobriety. When Roman wanted to call his father, Gary said OKAY. But then, when Gary needed the phone back for the meeting, he said to Roman, “I need the phone at eight, and you can have the phone at nine.” Boom! Roman snapped…
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Alcoholic in the Making
July 21, 2022 Dear God, good morning. I’ve been up since four thirty this morning. I got ready for my day already. Today’s reading is about “Doubting Yourself.” I always doubted myself because my self-esteem told me I was not good enough. This stems from my childhood. I was seven years old when my mother said, “I brought you into this world. I can take you out!” My mother was pure evil at that time. When my father left the house for good, my mother began to punish us all. My mother would use the belt buckles to whip our naked bodies, usually on our backs, because no one could…
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From Rage to Forgiveness
June 28, 2022 Good morning, dear God “. Forgiveness” is the topic. God tells us to forgive others, and God will forgive our sins. It took me my whole life to forgive my father before he passed away. One day my father called me, and I fell to the floor crying. He told me, “I want you down here so I can suck your “f***in p***y.” I was in a state of rage and revenge when I heard those words from his mouth. I raced down to Chelsea Massachuttes from Salem Massachttes. It only took me less than thirty minutes to get to his house. Rage was permeating through my…
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Alcoholism
June 21, 2022 Good morning, God. Years ago, I wrote to you in two-thousand and fourteen when I was still in the throws of my alcoholism, and I was now going out drinking as much as possible. It is very dangerous for a woman to be by herself. Usually, I go out with my so-called girlfriends. But I didn’t care. I went out one night, and I had my pool stick and wanted to play pool for drinks at this scummy place where drug dealers hang out, alcoholics, like myself, and the gang members of the Bloods hang out there too, but they never bothered me. My poor husband was…
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Anger-Survival
June 20, 2022 Dear Good, good morning. The reading is about anger-survival It’s taken me up until now to work on my anger. I was explosive when I got angry at a young age. Yes, I was furious when I was little. At the age of ten, the Department of Social Services {DSS} decided to separate me from my siblings. My world fell apart. I was angry and my heart was broken. I was devastated, DSS didn’t let me say goodbye to my sisters and brother. DSS took me from school and placed me into another foster home. I hated my Social Worker, she apparently didn’t care about the fact…
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Patience with Anger
June 6, 2022 Good morning God, wow, my little brown bible book, God’s promises for Every day, is about how to handle your anger and to forgive my sistas and brothers. It writes, “Patient people have great understanding, but people with quick tempers show their foolishness.” Proverbs 14:29 Have patience with anger. I ran wild in the street of Boston with my friends drinking most nights. I was a runner most of my life. I was young and angry. I’ve been angry throughout periods of my life. The Bible says it’s foolish to be angry. It states, “Patience is better than strength. Controlling your temper is better than capturing a…
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Love and Adversity
May 26, 2022 Good morning, dear God, Yesterday was intense. Today the scripture speaks about “Love.” According to “The Life Recovery Bible,” writes “Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud, or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no records of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, it’s always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.” Corinthians 13:1-3. I love Corinthians because it speaks of love. Please, sweet Jesus, help me never to lose faith in you. I believe in…
