• denial,  Fear,  mental illness


    December 5, 2022 Dear God, good morning. Today’s reading from the book God’s Promises for every day writes, “What to do when you feel rejected?” I was a child when my mother rejected me because It appeared that I was closer to my father than my mother. My father accepted me, so I felt safe when he came home from work. Or when he would take me to work with him, I was only four years old. My father had his own business, and he was an Exterminator, and he was known as Bill the Bug Man. I was always happy to be with my father because he would not…

  • Adversity,  Fear

    Blessings in Recovery

    November 21, 2022   Dear God, good morning. Thank you for all the blessings I have received. Jesus. The Bible says, “God can give you more blessings than you need.” 2 Corinthians 12:9 The most important blessing I have received is Your love for us, Jesus. You took me out of the pits of hell and blessed me to get sohba again in twenty-sixteen. I was desperate for help because I was now drinking close to a gallon of red wine within two days. I was physically sick from drinking so much alcohol. I would come home late in the early mornings, and my husband shook his head with disbelief.…

  • Faith,  Fear,  God

    Fear in Recovery

    November 19, 2022 Dear God, good morning. Today’s reading from the Bible writes, “What to do when you are afraid?” I have always been afraid my entire life, and I have feared people. Fear that they can hear what I’m thinking, fear of people touching me, talking to me, and of having children. People were not to be trusted because of what my biological mother would say to me, such as, ‘I brought you into this world, and I can take you out.” she said, “I’ll have your tubes tied so you won’t have children.” I believed her; I was only eight years old when she told me that. What…

  • Blog,  Faith,  Fear,  Uncategorized

    About The Unsaved.”

    November 18, 2022 Dear God, Good morning. The reading is about “What the Bible has to say about, The Unsaved.” When I read this verse, I immediately thought about my biological parents. My mother refused you and was not a believer. My father got sohba, and Denise, my older sista, told me that he was repentant for his sins, Jesus. I sure hope so. According to you, Jesus, it say’s, “Jesus said to his followers, “Go everywhere in the world and tell the Good News to everyone. Anyone who believes and is baptized will be saved, but anyone who does not believe will be punished.” Mark 16:15-16 I truly feel…

  • Adversity,  Fear,  mental illness

    Being Afraid in Recovery

    November 8, 2022 Good morning, Dear God. Today’s topic today is “Being Afraid.” I have always been afraid my whole life, and I ran on “self will-run-riot” since I was a child. When I was three, my mother forced me to eat oatmeal for breakfast, but it was lumpy and hard to swallow. I refused to eat the oatmeal, and my mother said, “You’ll eat this for dinner.” Since childhood, I was always fearful of my mother’s scorn. She always scared me, especially when she was drinking alcohol. My siblings and I feared both of our parents when they were drinking booze. Arguments between my parents were scary to watch,…

  • Anxiety,  Fear

    Worry in Recovery

     October 28, 2022 Dear God, good morning. Today’s topic in the Bible from God’s Promises for every day speaks about worry. It writes, “What to do when you feel worried.”  I am worried about Roman. He’s in the hospital again because the people on the second floor of this apartment act ghetto. They look for fights, especially Desiree. She puts negative thoughts into Roman’s mind. Like the Latin Kings are friends with Desiree. And poor Roman thinks that the Latin Kings are after him. Because of what Desiree told Roman. If we all move together to a beautiful apartment in a town called Amsbury. It would be perfect if we…

  • Adversity,  Fear,  God,  H.A.L.T.

    Health and Recovery

    October 26, 2022 Dear God, good morning. I finally went to the doctor yesterday for a consistent cough for the past two weeks. Now I feel clammy, hot, and tired. The X-ray department took x-rays of my chest. Hopefully, I don’t have the Flu. I need to call Liz and cancel this upcoming trip to Albany, New York, for this coming Saturday, October 28. I feel weak and tired, but I can’t sleep. Please help me feel better, Jesus. Today, I need to rest before I get sick. Part of self-care is taking care of your health. Today’s reading is about “What to do when you feel lonely?” I don’t…

  • feeling guilty
    Adversity,  depression,  Fear,  God

    Feeling Guilty is the in Past

    October 24, 2022 Dear God, good morning. I need your help to quit smoking cigarettes. I keep waking up coughing, like last night. Please help me stop smoking and stay stopped. Gary was sweet, making coffee for us. Today’s reading in God’s Promises forever day states,” What to do when you feel guilty?” Since I was a child, my biological parents have made me feel guilty. I felt guilty all the time as a child. When my mother was pregnant, she blamed me for losing our brother, Richard Dean Landers. I did not know my mother was having severe labor pains. I was so angry at my mother for physically…

  • alcoholic
    Adversity,  Alcoholism,  Anxiety,  Fear,  suffer,  suffering

    Alcoholic and Alcoholism

    September 8, 2022   Dear God, good morning. Yesterday I did not want to deal with the world, and all I did was rest, and I fell asleep early. On Tina’s hour, we spoke about the 24-hour book, The Thought for the day writes, “But for the grace of God, there go I.” When I see active alcoholics drinking, walking down the street with a paper bag. And the one who is waiting at the liquor store to open. I never look down on an alcoholic or drug addict. I don’t like that statement. “But for the Grace of God, there go I.” Yes, the active alcoholics and drug addicts…

  • Alcoholism,  depression,  Fear

    Depression in Recovery

    August 31, 2022     Good morning, dear God. I hope that you can heal the depression I get in the afternoons. Yes, the depression is rearing its ugly head again. I can’t stand it, and it hurts my heart. People who don’t get mental illness are so lucky. Depression feels like a dark cloud lingering over my head. I don’t want to be around people, so I retire to my bedroom, where I can sleep the pain away. It puzzles me that I have to go through this again. Please help me to help myself. Maybe Gary and I can watch a movie this afternoon to keep me from…

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