• Strength,  Surrender

    Surrender in Recovery

    December 12, 2022 Dear God, good morning. I was in a meeting this morning, and we discussed the third step in our literature. I know that it took me forever to surrender to your will. Maybe thirty-five years, and that’s a lifetime. I would not believe in you because my biological body abused me. It was a painful childhood. My mother would beat us senselessly with our father’s belt buckle. And my father would sexually abuse my sista Denise and me. We had to stand up near the bed and rub my biological father’s back, and his boom boom (ass) as he watched the Celtics play basketball. I was only…

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    Adversity,  Anger,  Resentment,  Strength,  survival


    June 20, 2022 Dear Good, good morning. The reading is about anger-survival It’s taken me up until now to work on my anger. I was explosive when I got angry at a young age. Yes, I was furious when I was little. At the age of ten, the Department of Social Services {DSS} decided to separate me from my siblings. My world fell apart. I was angry and my heart was broken. I was devastated, DSS didn’t let me say goodbye to my sisters and brother. DSS took me from school and placed me into another foster home. I hated my Social Worker, she apparently didn’t care about the fact…

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    Adversity,  Anger,  depression,  Resentment,  Strength

    Love and Adversity

    May 26, 2022   Good morning, dear God, Yesterday was intense. Today the scripture speaks about “Love.” According to “The Life Recovery Bible,” writes “Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud, or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no records of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, it’s always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.” Corinthians 13:1-3. I love Corinthians because it speaks of love. Please, sweet Jesus, help me never to lose faith in you. I believe in…

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    God,  Love,  mental illness,  Strength,  suffering

    Depression with Bipolar

    May 19, 2022                                      4:31 a.m.     Dear God, good morning. My depression is slowly lifting. I don’t feel lost or sad anymore. Jesus, you took my agony away, and I thank you. I feel free from the depression. I must call my doctor today and explain how I have been feeling. What can I do to stop the depression from manifesting in me again? Nothing. I’m stuck with this illness of being Bipolar, with severe mania and then deep dark depression. It makes me cry knowing I have Bipolar Disorder. According to WebMD, the definition of Bio-Polar 1 is That it writes, “Most people with the bio-polar1 disorder also…

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    Adversity,  Blog,  Fear,  Strength

    Emotionally Unstable

    May 16, 2022   Dear God, good morning. Yesterday I felt emotionally unstable. Then, Maire, my neighbor, came up to see me, and I just cried on her shoulder. Marie is a very lovable, caring, and funny woman. And she said that when I feel better, we’re going power walking. She’s so tiny, and it’ll be fun walking with her. The reading from God’s promises for every day writes, “Jesus is your Lord” I doubted you, Jesus, yesterday because I was depressed, and I’m sorry. I was in so much pain. Gary secretly called Terri. He told her that I was struggling. Well, she hung up on him and called…

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    God,  Love,  Strength,  Uncategorized

    God is Savior

    May12,2022                                                            4:30 a.m.   Dear God, good morning. Today’s reading is about God being our Savior. Jesus, you’re my Savior. I believe in you with all my heart and soul. All I know is that I came to you with tears in my eyes and asked for help. I don’t know what I was crying about. And you gently hugged me. I felt a warm feeling all around my body and I stopped crying. I really can’t explain it, except it was for real!  It happened so fast. You were there with me then you were gone. God’s Promises for every day state: “The Son of Man came to find…

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    Adversity,  Alcoholism,  Anxiety,  Blog,  Honesty,  recovery,  Strength

    God is the Answer

           May 9, 2022     Dear God, good morning again. It is four in the morning. I went to sleep at eight. Yesterday, I saw Fernando, and we went to Macy’s to buy dress pants for him. I was sad because I only get to see him once a week. We talk every morning and talk before we go to bed. I need to tell him that this living arrangement needs to change. He now wants to buy a two-bedroom Condo. That’s perfect for me. Fernando wants me to look up condos. I’ll start looking for a real estate agent today. I miss my husband and him singing Opera…

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    Adversity,  Anger,  God,  Love,  Strength,  Surrender,  wisdom

    God is my Protector

                           May 8, 2022 Good morning, God, You know when I start writing, I can’t stop. Today’s reading is about  “Jesus is your protector. My little brown book says, ” The Lord your God will go ahead of you and fight for you as he did in Egypt you saw him do it.” It also states,  “The Lord sees the good people and listens to their prayers. But the Lord is against all those who do evil, If your trying hard to do good, no one can really hurt you.”  1 Peter 3:12-13  Jesus, I know you’re my protector, but…

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    Faith,  Love,  Strength,  wisdom

    Strength in Recovery

    August 9, 2021 Dear Jesus, today I’m tired, but I forgot to say good morning to You. I am much better now. Please help me if I am to take a computer class, I will benefit from it. And hopefully, I can find a nanny job after taking the Red Cross first aid and CPR. This is what I need to work with children. There’s a lot on my plate. Please help me, dear Jesus, to stop worrying. I completely trust You today. You make miracles happen. Please HELP me be strong, and please give me all the love and strength I need. I need to get a part-time job…

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