Dear God, good morning. Today’s reading in God’s Promises for every day writes, “What to do when someone close to you dies.” Wow, this one is a painful topic. Death sucks! Last year I lost two friends, Dan and Danny. Dan and I were close, and we talked every other week. Dan was like an older brother to me. We went to karaoke, and Dan’s voice was incredible. Dan and I sang the song “Leather and Lace” by Stevie Nicks and Don … we sang as a duo together. A bunch of us in the fellowship went to the VFW, where they had karaoke, and we were all sohba.
Dan took me and my sister Sunflower into his home. I was waiting for a room in a beautiful victorian house in Melrose Masschettes, and I was waiting for a couple of weeks. Meanwhile, Dan had me sleep in his bed. And he never took advantage of me or put his hands on me. That’s how much I trusted Dan with all my heart. I miss Dan, and he was so popular in the fellowship. Women in the fellowship trusted Dan too.
Dan told me to sleep in his bed and never to worry that he would sexually touch me. And not once did Dan ever touch me. I trusted Dan with all my heart. So, Sunflower slept on the sofa. I left Dan’s place after two weeks had passed. Dan had a cookout each year. He invited my sister Sunflower and her kids to the cookout, and of course, I was there too. There were at least forty people at Dan’s cookout. Dan was sohba for many years.
So many people loved Dan. I know he’s not in pain because he came to you, Jesus, in the Heavenly world. Now he’s my angel.
Danny was a funny guy. He went out with my girlfriend, Jeanne, and they broke up. Whenever Danny entered a meeting, he would smile at everyone; he was a well-liked guy and funny. Club 24 in Malden, Massachusetts, had a ceremony for Danny. People went up to the mic and spoke about how wonderful Danny was. Jeanne needed to go to Club 24 to bring closure and say her good by’s to Danny.
I know both are with you, Jesus. I will miss them deeply. The Bible says, “Brother and sisters, we want you to know about those Christians who died so you will not be sad, as others have no hope. We believe that Jesus died and that he rose again. So, because of him, God will raise with Jesus those who have died.” 1Thessalonians 4:13-14
I know that both Dan and Danny believed in you, Jesus. In our fellowship, we use the word “Higher Power” as God. I am still very sad about both of their deaths. They both died of fentanyl, which killed them both because they left the fellowship. And it hurts my heart that I can never see both of them again, and I can never hear Dan singing and Danny’s humor.
Today Gary and I need to go food shopping after I speak to Terri. And finish organizing my bedroom. God, I need to pray for Desire. We are probably going to move to Amesbury, Massachusetts, which is a beautiful town. Fernando and I will remain apart for at least another nine months.
I miss living with Fernando and his humor, gentleness, and kindness. please help us find an affordable house with two bedrooms, two baths, a driveway, and a fenced-in backyard for a german shepherd, please, and thank you. The Bible speaks about asking God for help and that he will grant you aid. I need help finding a cute home in Revere, Everett, and Malden, Massachusetts. Please let the house be near Revere beach and the train station. Thank you, sweet Jesus, and I love you.