Dependable Authority
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November 25, 2022
Dear God, good morning. This morning I read the Bible, and it speaks about “The Bible is your Dependable Authority,” Dependable means “trustworthy and reliable.” I depend on you, Jesus, and trust you with all my heart and my soul sings with joy. Because I love you more. And I do rely on you for everything today.
Thank you for getting me into college.When I graduated from North Shore Community College in nineteen- ninety-three. I wrote a letter to the headmaster at Wheelock College, requesting a Scholarship at their college. In that letter, I wrote “The Abolishment of Child Abuse, neglect and trafficking children into prostitution in our Society. About a month later, I did receive that Scholarship for one year at Wheelock College. I was overjoyed, and I was shocked that I received a Scholarship from Wheelock College. I love Wheelock College, and maybe I’ll return and finish my Bachelor’s degree.
I relied on “Knowledge” from College. I was a “College junkie.” I loved to learn. Knowledge is power, and my major was Social Work at Wheelock College in Boston, Massachusetts.
I had a lovely roommate, Kristen, who was very sweet and kindhearted, and we grew to love each other because we had a similar past. Kristen was easy to love. Then I went to the Dean of the Social Work department and asked if they could accommodate my roommate and me to have a larger dormitory room because our room was too
The Dean of Social Work let both Kristen and me move to a really large room. We were so happy. That’s where I met two other girls at Wheelock. Annie and Dawn were a lot of fun too. We went to frat parties where there were guys drinking alcohol. I could easily drink those kids under the table back in my drinking days. The four of us were inseparable.
Unfortunately, I was in a destructive relationship with a guy named Bob, who was controlling and psychologically abusive. I was not able to do my schoolwork because I was in a verbally and psychologically abusive relationship with Bob and didn’t know it. Bob always says horrible things to his so-called friends. No one liked Bob. My girlfriends at Wheelock told me to get out of that relationship.
During the fall break, I ended up at McLean Hospital for two weeks in Belmont, Massachusetts, because I was mentally abused by Bob. He never put his hands on me, and I wish he did because I would have kicked Bob’s ass! Because of both the verbal and psychological abuse by Bob, I shut down emotionally from him and would cry because I wanted out of the insane relationship after a year of emotional abuse by Bob.
Bob claimed he loved me, but he didn’t. He was codependent as well as I was.
Oh boy! Bob saw my self-defense course on video, which is called ” Model Mugging.” I took the defense course because the love of my life, Burt, paid five hundred dollars for the course. And Burt wanted me to be safe and to protect myself from rapists or being robbed.
Bob was scared of me when he saw the video because, in the video, I went off on the instructor. I saw red when he came after me, and I ran up to him and kneed him in his private place. Of course, the instructor was wearing a thick white padded suit. They looked like astronauts.
The astronaut instructor placed his hands to his eyes which meant he could feel the impact and stop the fight. I fought the instructor with all my might. He landed on the floor after I kneed him, then I was about to step on his body, but the female head supervisor stopped me by pushing me away from the injured instructor. I didn’t mean to hurt him, but I blacked out.
After seeing me kick and fight, Bob never put his hands on me ever. I ended that crazy relationship. With the help of Rose Maire and Kathleen, they were my “Spiritual Giants, and they were sohba for many years. They told me to break up with Bob. I picked up the phone, called Bob, and said I was done. The relationship is over for good. I was finally free from any abuse.
After Wheelock college, I moved back to Beverly, Massachusetts, to work as a live-in nanny for Steven and Andrew. And then, I attended The Social Work Program at Salem University back in nineteen ninety-five. Being a kid from the streets and now attending College is a huge miracle from you, Jesus.
It appears that I was unconsciously working with children because children are safe. Children can’t hurt you, judge you, or criticize you. They are innocent and pure like you, Jesus. I love teaching children new and exciting activities. There were days when I turned on the music at the end of the day, and the children would start dancing. My parents loved the activities that we did in the classroom every day.
I wanted to do more for children. I wanted to help protect children from all types of abuse and help families with their difficulties of being a parent(s) or single parents.
I thought going to College was going to be hard, but when I started College at North Shore Community College. Where I met a few friends in the fellowship. I was elated to see Julie, Charlie, and Steve in college. We hung out a lot in college.
I struggled with learning how to read, write, and analyze theses and novels, but I did it. I worshiped College because, as a child and as a teenager, learning was not on the agenda. I was surviving the tough streets of Boston. It was a survival of the fittest. The definition is “The natural process by which organisms best adjusted to their environment are most successful in surviving and reproducing.” (Google)
I’m a survivor of most types of abuse except satanic rituals. Therefore, I believe that helping parents and children from all walks of life is imperative, giving them emotional support, helping to teach them new life skills, and helping families get proper counseling if needed. Basically, bringing families together and working on life’s goals with family dynamic situations so that they can be together again.
I plan on finishing my Bachelor’s Degree soon. I’ve been blessed by you, Jesus, because you taught me how to read, analyze books and write about the thesis. Thank you, sweet Jesus, for everything that is good in my life. I love you so much, Jesus!!
