January 10, 2023

Dear God, good morning. The topic I need to require is having faith in you, Lord Jesus. I begged you for help back in two-thousand-fourteen. I still drank alcohol and learned that my dog Annie-girl had four-stage cancer. The veterinarian told me the terrible news. And I had to put Annie girl down, which was the hardest thing I had ever done. I only had Annie for eight years. It broke my heart. I believe that Annie girl is on the rainbow bridge with other doggies. You gave me faith in Jesus. When I had a lovely dream of Annie’s girl. I remember waking up at six in the morning and decided to go back to sleep for an extra hour.
I went to sleep that morning and found myself with my Annie girl standing in a field of emerald grass. It was so beautiful. Annie jumped up and down, asking me to play ball, which was her favorite game. I was in AWE when I went to heaven to see my Annie girl, and she was barking at me, saying, “Play ball with me.”
I could not believe in you, Jesus, throughout my life because I grew up in violent home group homes and foster homes. And I am sorry, Jesus, for not believing in you.
Having this dream gave me faith that you do exist, Jesus. And the dream sobered me up. Thank you for getting me, sohba Jesus. According to the book God’s Promises for every day writes,” But the purity of your faith will bring you praise and glory and honor when Jesus Christ is shown to you. You have not seen Christ, but still, you love him. You can not see him now, but you believe in him. So you are filled with joy that can not be explained, a joy full of glory. And you are receiving the goal of your faith- the salvation of your soul.” Peter 1:7-9
I’ve been writing to you about everything since August of twenty-twenty-one. My faith comes from you, Sweet Jesus. In our fellowship, we say, “faith without work is dead.” This means that I need to get closer to you, Jesus, every day, and you give me hope that everything will be okay. I’m learning to let you run the show. I am a big control freak. So this charter defect needs to go. I think I’m always right. The Bible says, “A man who conquers his faith is better than capturing a city.”
I have Over Compulsive Disorder OCD, which hinders my emotional stability. I am a control freak, and I dislike being OCD. I am learning to let go of situations that baffle me. Acceptance is the answer to all my problems, which is what I have learned from the Big Book.
The Bible writes, “And from far away the Lord appeared to his people and said, “I love you people with a love that will last forever. That is why I have continued showing you kindness.”
Jeremiah 31-3
I truly believe in you, Jesus, and my faith in you is getting stronger. I pray for your love for me, my family, and my friends. I love you, Jesus, for making me a believer. Sometimes my faith gets weak, and I don’t know why. I’ll talk with Terri about not having faith all the time. But the Christian people have a lot of faith, and I am just learning about having faith in you, Jesus. “But Jesus said, “If your faith is small like a mustard seed, then you receive your faith in Christ. Knowing that you love us, God is reassuring me that my faith will grow bigger than a mustard seed. Thank you, sweet Jesus, for teaching me what faith feels like, and it’s unexplainable. Have a lovely day!

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