May 22, 2022
Dear God, good morning. I went online to a meeting early this morning. The topic was fellowship. In God Promises for every day, it writes, “But if we live in the light, as God is in the light, we can share fellowship with each other.” The fellowship taught me that without it, I could end up dead from alcohol However, I have this fellowship of friends on the 319. They helped me when I first started going to the meeting. Everyone greeted Gary and me when we first went on the 319. Since then, I have been able to surrender to your will Jesus since last year.
I want to live in the light with you, sweet Jesus, as long as I have pure thoughts and do not do evil acts. You’re my light, Jesus, and your teachings are lovely. I’m learning unconditional love, kindness, compassion, joy, forgiveness, and fellowshipping, and I feel blessed to have two fellowships. One with you, sweet Jesus, and the other fellowship to keep me sohba. When I first arrived at the meetings I found out that I wasn’t alone in my addiction. The fellowship helps me to stay sohba under all conditions. I haven’t had a desire to drink for Five and-half years. Thank you for lifting the obsession to drink way for me.
Yesterday I met a lovely lady on the 319. I loved Trish’s message, and I asked her for her number, and she gave me her number. Trish is another, Spiritual Giant, we talked for close to an hour, and she said to me, now I have a new friend. I thought, Wow, she’s right. We’re friends now. I’m so happy to meet Trish, she loves you, God, and she’s happy, joyful, and loves life. I can’t wait until I call her today. I’m grateful for Trish coming into my life. She’s vibrant, happy, and spiritual.
The two fellowships have brought me close to you, Jesus. Thank you for taking my depression away. I’m so grateful to you, and I feel blessed. The depression is crippling, and sad thoughts go through my head. But today, I feel a relief that I’m not depressed this morning. I plan on going to church this morning at ten. I need to understand the Bible more clearly. This church is called “Just Church,” which sounds like my church. I’m sure they’ll talk about you every Sunday. I’m committing to attend church every Sunday. I’m nervous about going to church because it’s been forty years, and I want to get closer to you, sweet Jesus, and worship your words of peace, love, joy, fellowship, and helping others.
I was with Fernando yesterday. We both want to buy a two-bedroom house and condo, the housing market is expensive, but I have hope. . But I turned my will over to you, Jesus. Fernando and I had a lovely day. We went to the mall because he needed shirts. T J Max has a clothing store brand names like Calvin Klein, and it’s way cheaper than Macy’s. Macy’s prices are so high, and their clothing is costly, but TJ Max has the same clothing line, and Fernando got three t-shirts, shorts, and workout pants for under fifty-five dollars. It would cost him double for the same items at Macy’s, like at least one-hundred and fifty dollars for the same clothes. We both had a giant cheeseburger, I could barely eat the enormous burger, but I did. Fernando’s affection has gotten better. He’s more affectionate in public which I love. He’s the only person who knows how to deal with my stupid bio-polar episodes and depression. He loves me unconditionally with all that I put him through with my drinking alcohol over the years. He said if I drank alcohol again, he would divorce me. I stay Sobha because I want sobriety. I depend on others for the fellowship. Thank you, sweet Jesus, for loving me. I’m grateful to you. Have a lovely day!