February 14, 2023
I started reading the book “GoDear God, Good morning and Happy Valentine’s Day, Jesus. Today’s reading is about how rich God’s love is for us. Promises for every day, which state that Jesus is your love. You are also my love, Jesus. I’ve grown to love you since two thousand and fifteen. After losing my dog Annie-girl to cancer in two thousand and fourteen, I felt my world collapse. I started drinking heavily and cried to sleep, missing my best friend, Annie-girl.
When my dog Annie girl passed away, I was devastated. It was like losing my baby girl to cancer. Annie was my world, I would go homeless for Annie-girl, and she would stay at Angel’s apartment and play with Angel’s Border Collie. It was only a month until I found an apartment for Annie and myself. The way I loved Annie is the way I love you, Jesus. It’s unconditional. I would go homeless for you to Jesus.
When I was still drinking alcohol in two thousand fourteen when I had to put my Annie-girl down, my heart shattered into millions of pieces. I barely breathed when the Animal Hospital Veterinarian told me that Annie-girl had stage four cancer. The pain in my heart was excruciating, and I wrote this note to you.
“Dear God and Jesus, please breathe life into my broken heart and heal my heart. I love you, dear God and Jesus. You are my savior, and I love you.” I always believed that you, Jesus, came to love us and forgive us of our sins. I thought that people who went to church were the ones that were saved.
But in your Kingdom, Jesus, everyone is saved when they pray to you and ask you for forgiveness and mercy. I feel blessed getting to know you more, Jesus. Listening to spiritual songs like the song from Lauren Diagail, who sings “You Say,” which I identified with.
Lauren Diagail sings about you, Jesus, in that song, which is so lovely and beautiful. The Bible says, “The Lord is my light and the one who saves me. I fear no one. The Lord protects my life; I am afraid of no one. If an army surrounds me, I will not be afraid. If war breaks out, I will trust the Lord.”
I trust you, Jesus, with all my heart and soul. You are a gentle Father who forgives, is loving, and merciful. Sometimes I don’t think I deserve your love and mercy.
I’m going to let the chains that bind me and let the chains fall to the ground. The chains of soul sickness, depression, mental illness, self-will, judgments, lack of patience, and tolerance of others. I need your help, sweet Jesus, to help take the chains off me. I love you dearly, Jesus, with all my heart. Have a blessed day!