May 25, 2022
Dear God, Good Morning, Heavenly Father, I’ve been up since 3:30 this morning, and I’m tired. Yesterday Gary gave his Bible to me, which has the twelve steps in it. This morning I read a book called “The Life Recovery Bible.” I’ve read Proverbs 4: 1-21 this morning and loved it. My parents had no coping skills to care for four children. It writes “
For those of us who were neglected and given little or no guidance by our parents, it’s not too late. We have a father in heaven who is eager to give us the wisdom we need. James advised: If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and he will give it to you. (James 1:5) Our heavenly Father loves us tenderly as a parent should. He is always there for us, waiting to give us the wisdom we need whenever we ask for it.”
Both parents were unavailable, neglectful, and abusive, physically and mentally. As a teacher myself, I’ve learned about different stages of Child Development. Usually, when children don’t receive love, affection, attention, and no guidance, they will act out. They thrive on that love. I was that child that acted out because I needed love from my parents. I wanted love and attention from my parents. I’d get into trouble, disassociate from my mind and body and stay out of trouble.
Sigmund Freud, the Father of Psychoanalysis and Neurologist, explains that abused children, if living with violence, develop an unconscious mind, basically shutting down from their perpetrators because the pain is too traumatic. My unconscious mind helped me to disassociate from the abuse.
Sweet Jesus, I Love you! Thank You