Jesus is Your Protector
November 29, 2022
Dear God, good morning. The book God’s Promises for every day writes Jesus is your Protector. Thank you, Jesus, for helping me get a new car, a twenty-twenty-three Camry, yesterday. You knew my fears of driving the Volvo because it appeared to me that I did not feel safe in that car. It was a fun car but would need work in the future and was expensive to repair. Gas was expensive too. Thank you for a beautiful new car.
Jesus, I know that you are my Protector today. In two-thousand-and sixteen, I surrendered to alcohol because the disease of alcoholism had beaten me up once again. I was in the boxing ring with booze, and every time I got into that boxing ring once again, alcohol beat me up.
When I went out drinking with the girls, I thought I could drink socially, and I tried to control my consumption of alcohol. But I became a daily drinker. Hiding it from everyone, or so I thought. It was you that got me sohba, Jesus, and thank you.
Controlling my alcoholism was a lot of work. I was in denial, and I would hide my bottles of Captain Morgan and a gallon of wine in my bedroom closet. Social drinkers don’t hide their alcohol or try to control it.
And social drinkers only have a couple of drinks and call it a night, whereas alcoholics drink excessively. We tend to get into trouble a lot. They are coming home in the middle of the night and falling down, pissing my pants drunk. Or I try to walk upstairs drunk only to find myself falling downstairs.
I have not had a drink in over six years. All because you protected me when I was drinking a lot of alcohol and ending up in dangerous places alone. I finally surrendered to this disease.
According to the Bible, “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you. When crossing rivers, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire, you will be burned, nor will the flames hurt you. Isaiah 43:2
It makes me sad to think that I did not want anything to do with Jesus for thirty-five years, and I’m genuinely sorry, Jesus. You protected me from harm when I was drinking myself to sleep every night.