January 9, 2022

Dear God, good morning. Today’s reading in the Life Recovery Bible is about “Job” Job was very close to God. He would do anything for God, even die for God. They were close and spoke to each other, even though Job was experiencing a great deal of pain. He trusted God. I, too, have a heart-to-heart conversation with you every morning Jesus.
I write to you, Jesus, which brings me close to you, and I feel peace and safety knowing you are with me. Even though I may be going through a storm of emotions, I know you are with me. Emotions like anger, sadness, and frustration do, however, get the best of me, and I admit I am human.
I don’t like sarcasm. It hurt like a knife in my heart. Sarcasm’s definition (Google) “The use of irony to mock or convey contempt:” I can snap, but mostly I go to my bedroom to deal with my emotions. I think about the situation, pray, pause, process, and proceed. I hate confrontationally situations, especially with loved ones.
This morning I argued with a loved one, which hurt my heart. I did nothing wrong except to write to you, Jesus. I make my coffee, have a cigarette, and start writing to you. Every day I do this, I need to be close to you, sweet Jesus. You are amazing.
Today I have an interview near Haverhill. Rowley, Massachusetts, They have a nine-month-old bouncing baby boy. There is also another job in Malden, Massachusetts, for a five-year-old that needs care. I am grateful to you, Jesus. I will love the job in Malden if it’s your will. Jesus, you perform miracles. Please guide my thinking and help me not to snap anymore. I love you, sweet Jesus.