Passion of Christ

       May 18, 2022

Dear God, good morning. I’m tired this morning. I read “God’s Promises for every day.” It says, “My friends, do not be surprised at the terrible troubles which now come to test you. Do not think that something strange is happening to you. But be happy that you are sharing in Christ’s sufferings so that you will be happy and full of joy when Christ comes again in glory.” 1 Peter 4:12-13.

I watched the movie “Passion of Christ. “It broke my heart to see your suffering, Jesus. The Romans tortured you severely, and I was horrified and felt a great sadness in my heart for you. The second time I watched the movie again, I could not watch it.

 It says trouble may come to us to test my strength in you, sweet Jesus. There was a time I wouldn’t believe in you. I was an atheist for many years, and I refused to believe in you because of my childhood. You were nonexistent in my life.

I lived my life without you, and now I can’t imagine life without you, Jesus. Since last August, I’ve been writing to you because I had to accept your will. After all, I was desperate, lonely, feeling hopeless, and I received your love when I was afraid. I prayed with all my heart to connect to you, sweet Jesus, and you delivered. I was in a hopeless state of mind when I was praying to you, and I felt lighter, hopeful, joyful, and filled with love from you, Jesus. I never thought that I would come close to loving you unconditionally. Well, here I am writing to you.

There is a saying, “When the student is ready, the teacher will appear,” unknown author. You’re my teacher, and I’m the student. I want to start going to church this coming Sunday. Gary said he’ll come with me. I want to get closer to you, sweet Jesus, to learn about your teachings. I genuinely believe that you had blessed me, Jesus, when I cried out to you for help. You came to my rescue, and you have helped me see your way of life. You loved me when I was having a hard time. You loved me when I was drinking myself to death. You came to me many times, but I was stubborn, arrogant, self-rigorous, and an atheist, and you still came to me saved. I was doing my daily things without you and noticed that My soul was empty. I was a broken woman. My soul is happy with the joy of getting to know you, sweet Jesus. Love me