Surrender to God
August 18, 2022
Dear God, good morning. Today’s reading of the Life Recovery Pray Devotional book discusses “Making God Laugh.” It writes, “If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans.” I have always been a control freak to protect myself from people. My plans I surrender to you, Jesus. I turn my addiction to alcohol over to you. I have not done an excellent job making plans for myself. The same book writes, “Commit your actions to the Lord, and your plans will succeed. Proverbs 16:3
We have a saying in our fellowship, “I can’t, He can, I will let him.” Turning my will and life over to you, Jesus, is hard for me sometimes. If I surrender to your will, I know that you will do a better job taking care of me. My self-will and plans for my future life do not work well.
God, I know life is better when I surrender to your will for me! When I started my recovery at two thousand and sixteen, I was physically sick, emotionally depleted, and hopeless. You came to me again and saved me from death. I love you so much. I’ve learned so much over the last year. The fruits of your love, which are love, peace, joy, patience, kindness, and goodness, fill me up with exhilaration and love for you.
Sweet Jesus, Roman had a good night. I told Roman to wear his headphones to block out the noise and the voices in his head. And at four-thirty this morning, Roman said to me that the headphone worked. I was screaming with joy. Finally, the poor guy can sleep at night.
His father, Richard, is returning to Florida to see his wife, who is suffering from cancer. Richard believes Roman should go into an outpatient treatment program so Roman, hopefully, will learn how to take better care of himself. I just spoke to Roman, and he said he would do the outpatient program. I sure hope so. I saw Richard today and told him that Roman agreed to go into a day program while Roman was there. Roman said, “Yup, dad” Thank you, sweet Jesus, for helping Roman with the decision to get help.