August 22, 2022

Dear God, good morning. Today’s reading of the Life Recovery Pray Devotional book discusses “Making God Laugh.” It writes, “If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans.” I have always been a control freak to protect myself from people. My plans I turn over to you, Jesus. I turn my addiction to alcohol over to you, sweet Jesus. I have not done a very good job making plans in my life. The same book writes, “Commit your actions to the Lord, and your plans will succeed. Proverbs 16:3 We have a saying in our fellowship, “I can’t, He can, I will let him.” Turning my will and life over to you, Jesus is hard for me sometimes. If I surrender to your will, I know you will do a better job taking care of me. My self-will and making plans for my life in the future do not work.

God, I know life is better when I surrender to your will for me. When I started my recovery at two thousand and sixteen, I was physically sick, emotionally depleted, and hopeless. You came to me again and saved me from death. I love you so much. I’ve learned so much over the last year. The fruits of your love, which are love, peace, joy, patience, kindness, and goodness, fill me up with exhilaration and love for you, Jesus.

Last night, I asked Roman if he wears his headphones before sleeping. So Roman won’t hear loud noises outside. When I woke up and saw Roman this morning, Roman said that the headphones worked. Thank you, Jesus. We want the best for Roman because we love him unconditionally. I pray that Roman does the day program, which I know will help him with coping and life skills.

Roman would be terrified of being all alone if Gary and I weren’t here. His father, Richard, is returning to Florida to see his wife, who is suffering from cancer. Richard believes Roman should go into an outpatient treatment program, so Roman hopefully learns how to take better care of himself. I just spoke to Roman, and he said he would do the outpatient program. Thank you, sweet Jesus, for helping Roman with treatment. I pray Roman does go to treatment. Love you, Jesus.